Thursday, 28 January 2010

She's gone!

We just got back from dropping my GG at Heathrow & I am back home, a little bruised & bereft...

I have been thinking about the list still to complete from last week (or the week before!) - 10 things which make you happy - I have to tell you taking my GG to the airport for the long haul back to Sydney definitely won't be on it! It's been so lovely having her around for the last few weeks and the house won't be the same for a while...I'm totally exhausted but in a good way (mothers, you know what I'm talking about)...have just been reading S's post at semi-expat in oz about her secret fondness for Abba - it brings to mind one of their old slushy songs which I never in a million years ever thought had any relevance for wrong can you be?

Slipping through my fingers ...Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
& save it from the funny tricks of time.....

This sums up my feelings at the moment - sentimental & slushy I know, melancholy, yes, definitely...but it feels right to be...tomorrow the tears will have dried and I shall be talking to her, listening to her plans for the new semester and sharing her new adventures....that will feel right too but today the wound is fresh & deep....I shall miss her........s


  1. Yes, it's a long way away and must be very hard for you. I hope it isn't too long before you both live closer together.

  2. Oh my goodness, I could barely contain myself when they sang that song in "Mamma Mia". My daughter is just 8 years old and while I want her to travel the world, I can turn myself into a sobbing mess if I think of a time when she won't live with me!! And of course right now she is convinced that she will never ever want to leave home!!

    Thank you so much for your lovely comment on my blog :)

    I love the photo in your blog peaceful.


  3. Susie..first let me say you most definitely have a Gorgeous Girl! What a great photo. I will have to send you a photo of my Christine someday, it must be the age, same hair, same hat...that lovely 'I am young and the world is yet to be conquered' sort of air about them. I feel for you and hope you will feel a bit better each day. Maybe focusing on a trip to matter how far away? Christine leaves Feb 11 and is counting the days to be with her bf again..I prefer not to count. I think you and I should meet in London someday to drown our sorrows...we could even do that over tea and chocolate, lot's of it! In the meantime, listen to the music, cry, watch lots of movies, go for walks and then when you least expect it each day will get a bit brighter and your visits will be sooner than you imagine. That's my two cents for what it is worth. Take care.
    Jeanne xo

  4. Mise - thanks for your thoughts..
    Simone - exactly! It seems like just the blink of an eye since I had an eight year old who told me she was staying at home forever - time flies so fast, enjoy every moment...& welcome along!
    Jeanne - thank you for this - you are spot on & obviously know these feelings well, it's so nice to feel I'm not alone! Yes, absolutely, a trip to old London town would be great - tea, chocolate & lots of alcohol seems attractive at the moment! - look forward to it!

  5. Susie - my dear. I know what it is like... those feelings are so familiar too... I had tears in my eyes reading your post and then well, when I played the song - a deluge. Do hope she is having a safe flight and that you will be able to plan a trip over to Australia soon. I am sure the house seems strangely quiet and 'odd' too. Try and focus on your memories of her time with you and look forward to when you will see her again - I expect you will have a while of being quite 'down' though... Wonderful photograph !
    Sarah x

  6. Oh this is too sad Susie. I had to say goodbye to my Mum a couple of weeks ago and she's just over the ditch in New Zealand. She was a sobbing mess and clung to me like nothing. I guess it doesn't get easier over the years which isn't much comfort to you,sorry. Take the time to be sad, there are no rules. Just know we're feeling for you!

  7. Same here too Susie when I had to say goodbye after Christmas to Son #3. It's a long way from Adelaide to Melbourne!! But I'll be seeing him next week for a very special treat, more on that later. I think you need to take Jeanne's suggestion up & head into London to meet up for a day of treats & eats.
    Millie ^_^

  8. Dear Susie,
    My daughter went traveling after University and I didn't see her for a whole year. It's not easy. but at least she lives fairly near now. Thank goodness my son and his wife don't want to take off for a long time. It must be such a difficult time for you.... and every time you meet up, you know that there is going to be the sad goodbyes.
    At least there are many ways nowadays, to communicate and keep in touch, which helps so much. XXXX

  9. Great song...I think most moms can relate. The picture of your daughter is sweet.

  10. SE, Ange, Millie, Jackie, Rita - thank you all for your sweet thoughts & comments - so appreciated....a bit of blog love is very welcome! Susie x

  11. I was ironing the other day and my 19 yr old daughter was watching Mamma Mia. When that song came on I just blubbered like a fool! My daughter just ignored me...she knows how I am!

  12. Hi TST - thanks for your comment and welcome! By the way, I just read your facebook post - I don't have one as my daughter tells me that mothers 'facestalk'(!!!!!) their children that way & it's not 'cool'!!!! OMG! x

  13. Oh so sweetly sentiments not only as i watch my daughters, but now 6 longing to still my heart just enough to capture each moment that seems to . . . .be missed.